Sitonicsa - Breakup Pillow

I've been carrying this whole her too long
Trying to be brave, trying to be strong
Everybody looks at me and thinks that
I'm doing fine while
I break when shadows creep
I read your message till the words went pale
Then set the phone face down beside my hand
I told my sister
I am doing well.
I'll fold in tears into a kitchen towel
I have been carrying this whole hurt